Dusky edwards

Tag: Self

  • Well, well, well…

    Well, well, well…

    I’ve been on a hiatus. Not on purpose. I can’t give one good reason for not writing, podcasting, etc. So, here’s a few: I’m back now. My goal is to write daily. My New Year’s resolution was to create and adhere to a schedule. That hasn’t happened. But, I did attempt dry January. If all…

  • Christmas with Cancer

    I haven’t made time to write much. This cancer has had me so focused on my treatment, the next steps, what steps are coming up. To catch you up on everything, I was diagnosed with breast cancer in February. I underwent a minor surgery in March to have my port installed. I then started chemo…

  • In case you were wondering…

    In case you were wondering…

    Cancer sucks. Chemo sucks. Baldness sucks. Broken peeling fingernails suck. Dry mouth sucks! Chest aches suck! Exhaustion sucks! Nausea sucks! I’m halfway through chemotherapy! I only have 4 more sessions to endure. I hear that the new medication that I’ll be given is easier. I’m hopeful. The red devil is truly a devil. At times,…

  • To Laugh

    I’ve decided… I’m going to focus on laughing more. The more I talk to the people close to me, the more I realize that the death of my parents took me away from me.  As I am slowly healing, less people are afraid to point it out. I am not the same person I used…

  • The Thing About Getting Old

    The Thing About Getting Old

    No old(er) person can convince you that their throbbing knee or sore elbow is what is to come.  I hit 40 and shit just went slidin’ down hill.  I got an X-ray on my shoulder last week and an MRI yesterday.  I tried to go to the gym this week.  My body was like, “Who…

  • My Way Home

    My Way Home

    I lived 6 different places before the age of 8. Lately, I’ve been thinking about those places, what they were like, what life was like, etc. I try to remember what my room looked like, the names of friends, my teachers. I do remember being home alone a lot. My mom worked. And we had…

  • Forgiveness

    “Most of us need time to work through pain and loss. We can find all manner of reasons for postponing forgiveness. One of these reasons is waiting for the wrongdoers to repent before we forgive them. Yet such a delay causes us to forfeit the peace and happiness that could be ours.” -James E. Faust…

  • Gratitude & Authenticity

    I haven’t been posting all the gratitude moments that I’ve been writing.  I’m not feeling humbled and gracious all the time.  Frustrations arise.  Exhaustion is a constant. That’s just life. One entry was accidentally deleted by me.  The others just aren’t flowing the way I’d like.  So, I have them saved in draft form.  Writing…

  • Day 2

    This idea. This project. Day 2 and I’m on high alert. I’m examining each notable moment. Am I loving this? I am! Is this moment so great? It really is! This inner dialect occurred repeatedly. There are so many great moments. Frames too quick to catch on camera but still so palpable to my heart’s…

  • Gratitude- Day 1

    Grief, stress, change, falling outs with loved ones, and other ugly things caused me to dwell on what was missing in my life. I began a cycle of throwing myself into things that didn’t make me happy because I believed its what I had to endure for the time being and I believed it was…