Dusky edwards

Tag: dad

  • Drinks at Dusk

    I’m thinking about starting a podcast. Not because I feel like the next Jay Shetty. Here’s the basis for it. I know a lot of interesting people; Ordinary but also really extraordinary people. They have some incredible stories. I love stories. I also feel like I have the gift of gab along with a couple…

  • To Laugh

    I’ve decided… I’m going to focus on laughing more. The more I talk to the people close to me, the more I realize that the death of my parents took me away from me.  As I am slowly healing, less people are afraid to point it out. I am not the same person I used…

  • The Thing About Getting Old

    The Thing About Getting Old

    No old(er) person can convince you that their throbbing knee or sore elbow is what is to come.  I hit 40 and shit just went slidin’ down hill.  I got an X-ray on my shoulder last week and an MRI yesterday.  I tried to go to the gym this week.  My body was like, “Who…

  • My Way Home

    My Way Home

    I lived 6 different places before the age of 8. Lately, I’ve been thinking about those places, what they were like, what life was like, etc. I try to remember what my room looked like, the names of friends, my teachers. I do remember being home alone a lot. My mom worked. And we had…

  • Goodnight Dad

    When it’s midnight and you happen to check your phone only to see your dad had called at 11:23! Your heart STOPS. IT STOPS. You call back, panicked. You review all the potential emergencies in your head like a rolodex, certain you will have to rush over. You’re hoping for a miracle. The voice that…

  • Forgiveness

    “Most of us need time to work through pain and loss. We can find all manner of reasons for postponing forgiveness. One of these reasons is waiting for the wrongdoers to repent before we forgive them. Yet such a delay causes us to forfeit the peace and happiness that could be ours.” -James E. Faust…

  • Gratitude & Authenticity

    I haven’t been posting all the gratitude moments that I’ve been writing.  I’m not feeling humbled and gracious all the time.  Frustrations arise.  Exhaustion is a constant. That’s just life. One entry was accidentally deleted by me.  The others just aren’t flowing the way I’d like.  So, I have them saved in draft form.  Writing…

  • Day 2

    This idea. This project. Day 2 and I’m on high alert. I’m examining each notable moment. Am I loving this? I am! Is this moment so great? It really is! This inner dialect occurred repeatedly. There are so many great moments. Frames too quick to catch on camera but still so palpable to my heart’s…

  • Gratitude- Day 1

    Grief, stress, change, falling outs with loved ones, and other ugly things caused me to dwell on what was missing in my life. I began a cycle of throwing myself into things that didn’t make me happy because I believed its what I had to endure for the time being and I believed it was…

  • I’m With You

    I’m With You

    “Be who you needed when you were younger.” I found this quote while grieving the loss of my mother, pregnant with my first girl.  That in itself, not fucking fair. My son, just starting 2nd grade, had to be told that he’d never see his best friend again.  My husband had tried to explain to…