I’m feeling sad this week. In an hour, my sons will be home from their last day of school. This was a new school for them. I could not have felt more uninvolved. I didn’t take a picture of them before sending them of this morning. I went back to bed.
At their former school, I was able to volunteer. I got to know the staff, other parents, kids, etc. I was able to understand the classroom routines. I was familiar with the school.
This year was not the same. I’m grateful that my oldest has really enjoyed the year. He is much happier than he was at the beginning. My middle kid had no problem getting accustomed to the new surroundings. Perhaps it is me that still struggles with the move.
I have 2.5 mom friends I have made at this new school. Part of this is due to the boys taking the bus. Part of it is due to my inability to volunteer in class. I have my youngest at home still. And I’m working part time. And, I didn’t really jive with both son’s teachers. It wasn’t dislike. It wasn’t like. It wasn’t really anything. Both boys really enjoyed their teachers. That’s all that really matters.
My oldest struggled this year. His grades were awful. We were on him constantly. It didn’t seem to affect him. At his old school, he received the principal’s award very early on. He was constantly being recognized for something. This new school didn’t know the Quentin recognized for awesome citizenship. This new school accused him of things such as stealing. He even got into his first fight. For him to tell me how much he enjoyed the school year confused the shit out of me. But it also gave me so much relief.
I’m excited to hear how their last day went. I’m sad I don’t have the photos to post of them holding cute signs. I’m just now beginning to enroll them in summer camps. A little LATE!!!!
In life, you won’t always have your mom to help you, to hold your hand, and to advise you. It’s taken me over 2 years to learn this with the death of my own mom. Prior to this year, I was too available and enabled my boys. I am so sorry to you, Quentin especially. They’ve had to figure things out on their own this school year. Overall, they did an exceptional job. I may not have the photos to prove it. But, I do have the overall feeling that they are going to be ok.
There’s always next year for better grades.
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