She’s here! Symone Rose! She made her stunning and traumatizing debut at 4:22 AM, Saturday April 8th. Weighing in at 8 lbs. 10 oz., this girl was no joke! A week early! And she DID NOT allow for time to receive assistance in the form of that sexy epidural I was major looking forward to. I feel robbed.
Not really though. Bragging rights achieved for my first natural birth and her being the biggest baby yet! She’s got her dad’s thighs and her mom’s love of shut eye. And she loves the cuddles just like me too. Her brothers, Quentin in particular, are over the moon for her. I have a lot of anxieties. One of my biggest with her was how I would adapt: going from 2 boys to a girl, hormones + grief, hormones + grief + sleep deprivation, hormones + grief + sleep deprivation + healing. I’m amazed at myself and I’m feeling pretty proud, quite frankly. She’s given me so much in her short life already that I will never be able to appropriately put into words. Of course, I feel sadness when I think about my mom and how she’ll never know her in this existence. But, I anticipated a breakdown. Don’t get me wrong – a lot of people are annoying! But, I am surprised and grateful for the emotions and the temperament I have experienced. I feel like my mom has something to do with this but I can’t explain how.
In the photo, it’s after noon. I’m still in my pjs. I haven’t showered. My make-up is from the day before (Happy Easter!). My second oldest is still in his pjs watching Rabbids Invasion and devouring his breakfast (2 whole pb&j sandwiches). Nice roots too, right!?
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